yesterday

july 4, 2004

7:30 pm - 2 methadone
4:30 pm - 2 methadone
4:30 pm - 1 atavan

it wasn't yesterday.
it was 5 years ago to this day.
i climbed on the roof - just like i did in high school.
i walked to the bayou. no one was on the streets. i could hear then see the fireworks over the bayou. i prayed. i walked back to the house. i fell on the grass in the front yard and begged God for peace - for me, for Dad, but mostly for Mom.

i watched her sleep. her breathing shallow. i watched her sleep.

i wish for a moment.