My peace

july 5, 2004

8:00 am - 2 methadone
8:00 am - 1 atavan
5:00 pm - 2 methadone
5:00 pm - 1 atavan


i took my peace bracelet and put it on Mom. i pulled the recliner next to her bed and reached through the guard rail to hold her hand. her breathing was shallow. then interrupted. then a gasp - a loud one. i woke. i knew she was gone. it didn't matter that i knew this was coming. my heart was not ready. just hours ago i asked God to take her and now i wanted her back.


There is no grief like the grief that does not speak. --Henry Wordsworth Longfellow